When All The Lights Go Out...

Hey guys!

Yeah, this is my exact mood right now. I mean it, I'm eating chocolate as well, well it's an old Easter egg but it's still intact. Not much has been happening recently, Sam and I are still together which is wonderful and I'm so bloody happy about it. I really do love him to pieces :') Though I do have stuff to talk about, but it's not his fault in any way :)

Fuck's sake I'm so bloody bored right now, there's fuck all to do and Sam's gone to bed so can't call him -.-" Hopefully he will be awake later on through the night, if not...Then I guess I'm just seeing him tomorrow. Which brings me onto another point, since I was talking to mum about it earlier and she was all "How come you always go to his, how come he never comes to ours?" So I said "Cause he has practise Wednesday, Thursday and Friday" So there would be no point. 

Which sucks so much balls that he has practise all those day's throughout the week, which I blame Jake for and have my sad reasons that he's doing it cause he doesn't want Sam and I to spend time together, but then that's probably just me being a total bitch.

But why would you need to practise that much in a week, if you don't have any gigs until December time..I think. I honestly don't understand it. It's been like it for three weeks now and it just sucks balls cause I can hardly see him, and he hardly comes to mine because of it which sucks also. But what can you do?

So yeah, just told mum that they would be no point since he would come here extremely late and then have to get up and go at like 7 to get to Jake's in time for practise. ARGH it sucks balls, so the only way I can see him is if I stay or go to his, which isn't so bad cause I get to him :') Just wish he could come to mine more often. 

Though I'm seeing him tomorrow and then he's coming to mine on Sunday and then there's college on Monday and Tuesday. But I'm going to the caravan on Thursday with Aileen and don't come back till Sunday. I think I may die of loneliness if I don't see him, it's killed me today so how the FUCK am I gonna last 3-4 days?! D: 

THIS SUCKS MIGHTY BALLS!!! >:(

I still can't believe I go out with him, like I really can't. I don't even know how he likes me but he does and it's all good. I just...I dunno, it's hard to believe that I used to talk about him with Aileen, David and Alex and now I sleep at his house and shill with him, and he's my boyfriend. It's so weird to say it, it's good, it's great and wonderful. But just strange from keeping it quiet and now, I just kiss and cuddle him and I can't believe it happened. But I'm so fucking happy about it :'D 

Trololololol when Nat gives everyone hugs at the end of the day on Tuesday and she turns to you and gives me the most filthiest looks on the face of the earth, looks me up and down like I'm filth and just stands there :') So I grabbed Sam's have and gave him a kiss in front of her then we said bye and walked off to meet his dad, BOOM!

Though she was flirting with Sam on Tuesday morning in Andy's lesson which pissed me off to no fucking end, so I ended up walking around Rotherham Town with Aileen and David screaming and shouting and swearing, cause it pissed me off so fucking much. But in the end I decided that it shouldn't since, I'm with Sam and not her. I get to kiss him, cuddle him, touch him and all that crap. NOT HER! So all is good and I'm fucking happy about it, she can flirt cause at the end of the day he's mine, I go out with him and I get to do, what she fucking can't! BOOM! SHUT THE FUCK UP AND SIT THE FUCK BACK DOWN BITCH!! :D 

Oh fuck, I'm in such a happy mood, but there's fuck all to do. Probably should of saved that bath for tonight, could of passed some time then, bollocks. Might write some lyrics or something. Was gonna do some writing earlier, but just can't be arsed with it at all xD

Miss Sam so much though :'(

Oooh meant to go the pics with Balfour yesterday, but missed the film so we went bowling instead and it was fucking awesome! :D I won a game, and so did he, I'm quite proud of myself for that. Then we went into the arcade and prated about there, and then went to burger king :P Was a lovely night :) Oh yeah, there was a dude that was on the tram and he didn't have any socks or shoes on, and he just casually got off and walked to Cineworld... Hmmm

Ummm....What else can I tell you? ....Oooh Lennod's birthday tomorrow and she's having a party FUCK!!...I haven't got her anything. Oh bollocks, be okay she can have some money and a card or something :) Sorted. 

Dear...GOD! He looks like a paedophile xD Oooh went on the drums today after a while of not playing, I was fucking shite! xD

But I'm off now, since I have fuck all to do, but will find something to do. You never know, I may fall to sleep or just eat chocolate for the rest of my life and read a book until I finish it :P BOOM xD 

Bye Bitches! xxx  

Girl, I'm Just A Jeepster For Your Love

Would like you all to take a moment to look at this picture. You know why? Cause it's Sam and I. Oh yes, we go out and have been for two weeks nearly...I think haha. So I guess I have SHIT LOADS to tell you all. Your Ready?..

Right, can't remember the actual date cause it was last week sometime but yeah. We've been talking to each other for ages since I was at the caravan with Aileen, then got  back and we planned to go to the pictures together. I have never been so fucking nervous in my whole fucking life -.-" But yeah, we went to watch....um...21 Jump Street, and I grew  the balls from somewhere *As David and Cameron both said* And turned and kissed him on his cheek, since we had been cuddled up and staring at each other for a while. 


So I turned round after I did that, then he said "Come here" and lifted my chin up and we kissed! :D Then we decided to go out, walked to Meadowhall hand-in-hand and ended up at BHS cuddling on a couch, which now we have been thrown out of, for lounging around on every couch possible in the store haha. Was wonderful :') 

So since then everything has been great, all is well in my world right now and nothing could be better. Apart from when you just chill and cuddle with Sam and listen to T. Rex cause that's just kick-ass! Haha Such a lovely time :) 

Just ate some special fried rice...thought that was needed to be honest haha. I honestly don't think he could get anymore sexy, apart from Jeffery, cause...well, he's my second lover xD 

Though, onto a different note. Nat and Jake have changed so fucking much and I'm pretty sure Nat hates me cause I go out with Sam. So Aileen, David, Alex and Rachel have come to the conclusion that she fancies Sam, and she hates me cause I go out with him -.-" Bitch. 

So I'll take you all the way back to the beginning with Nat. Last week, when we just started going out, Sam and I went to Jake's, where Nat what off with me then. But didn't see anything by it, but she just kept asking me questions which was just annoying. 

Then the four of us we're sat in the corner in Andy's lesson where she just went "I think you should of gone out with Melissa, I mean no offence Emma, but you should of gone out with her Sam, she's so lovely" Whist I was sat right fucking next to her. I was like "Fucking, cheers Nat" What a fucking CUNT! Sam just went "I'm okay thanks, I have Emma and she's much better" :') He's a babe. 

Then she started saying "Oh Sam, you're my best mate. Like my best friend that's a boy. You're just great" And she kept saying it on fucking repeat and giving me dirty looks. Which brings me onto my next point, since all she's been doing is giving me filthy looks, I smile at her and she just looks me up and down like fucking filth. I have given up with her and can't be arsed to fucking speak to her anymore, since she is a nosey fucking cunt and it has nothing to do with her at all. And trust me, there is still more stuff to talk about...

At the end of the day on Tuesday just gone, both Nat and Jake said that Alex had been calling me a slag and slapper behind my back, and said that he wouldn't be surprised if I had slept with Sam within the first week of going out with him, since all I did was fuck Lewis all the time apparently. WHAT A LOAD OF FUCKING BOLLOCKS! Cause I can tell you for a fact that I honestly never slept with him at all. 

Though then Alex denies it all, and so does Nat and Jake so I don't know who to fucking believe. And in all fucking fairness I could give an actual shit what people fucking say about me or Sam. Cause I know it's not true and he knows it's not true. I'm fucking  happy in my life right now, REALLY fucking happy and no one can take that away from me at this current point in time. Because I won't fucking let them. 

Why should I be depressed and upset for someones sick amusement? I shouldn't because I'm having a great time at the moment, and I'm so happy with Sam :'D So fuck them all and they can suck fucking fat cock in burning hell, rot and die a slow fucking death. 

That would please me greatly right now, to all fucking three of them. Since not one, have the balls to say it to our faces. CUNTS!!!!

GOOD FUCKING NIGHT, FUCKERS!!!

Lately, I've Been Thinking About Someone...

Hellooooooooo! :D 

Alex is showing the right mood I'm in right now haha.

So I have quite a bit of stuff to tell you, and guess who it's about haha. God I would be sooo fucked if he read all these haha But I guess I need to catch you guys up haha 

Tuesday 27th March 2012

So on Tuesday it was the last day of college before we all split up for the Easter Holidays, and it went...well, it went wonderful actually, and been even better since! Haha. 

Since there was no Rockschool to do and we had no work to actually do, Dave let us all get into bands and shit, well if we wanted to. Which felt like it lasted for a good two hours haha. But I couldn't be assed to do anything so I just laid on the floor for a while. I was really comfy but then Jake and Sam decided to walk in, and Sam pretended to kick my head, but didn't haha. Then I was all comfy, and I could see like shadows above me but didn't think it of anything. Then suddenly Sam grabbed my wrists and Jake had my ankles and they decided to give me a leg-and-a-wing cause there cunts like that xD

Then  they we're all, "Oh Emma, come here. Come sit with us" And laughing, and I didn't trust them, but I went in the end and then sat next to Sam and chilled. The he started poking my leggings cause they were gold and he prodded me with a drumstick, which then caused me a bruise later, and I still have the fucker haha. 

Then later on, Alex and I started to walk somewhere for our break cause he wanted to talk about his relationship, by which I gave wonderful advise on haha. Then, Sam and Jake tagged along and we just ended up sitting on these rock things for a while and talked about all sorts xD 

Then at the end of the day, there was Sam, Simon, Jake and I. Then Jake went, so there was only us three left. I remember getting something out my bag but can't remember what it was lol. So I got a load of stuff out including a book called 'Drummer' that Sam decided to nick and prat about with and wouldn't give it me back. Then started saying stuff like "It's really called Bummer ain't it Emma? That's what it's called, You're a bummer right?" -.-"

So we started arguing cause I was trying to get it back and he leaned over so I had to like, really lean to get it back. Then I gave up in the end and I just decided to rest my head on his shoulder and then he rested his head on mine. It was lovely :') Then his dad came to pick him up, and he gave me a cuddle and I was like buried in his chest lol And his dad kept looking at me from the car. Then he put thumbs up as he usually does, so I stuck middle finger up at him and he just laughed then waved haha. 

Then he messaged me as soon as he got in the car on fb, saying that he wanted his book back :( Then we just ended up speaking to each other till 3am :') 

Saturday 31st March 2012

Recently through that time space of days, he gave me his phone number, which I may add. That I fucking died sooo fucking much haha. So been texting him :') 

Oh went to this Battle Of The Band thing in Rotherham, where a load of people from college we're playing so Rachel and I went a long and Billups. To support them all :D OMFG Rachel said something about Sam when he was on stage sooo fucking loud, that people who we're sat round me, turned round and grinned. Then turned round and his dad was fucking looking at me -.-2 Yeah, just gonna take it that he knows I fancy his son like fuck haha 

Yeah, so he kept poking me when he was sat next to me, and when he was sat behind me he kept putting his can of coke on my leg and asking if it was cold haha. But it all went good in the end and really enjoyed it and everyone did wonderful. Apart from someone on our course blowing up the speakers -.- Trust us lot to do something like that haha. 

But got three hugs at the end of the day so I ain't complaining and he was asking for them, so BOOOOOOOM! Haha, got a cuddle into his chest then another like deep in his neck, mmm was warm and smelt lovely haha. Then he was texting me saying that he didn't get a hug and stuff haha. 

On the same day, cause I had to go and be home for 6:00pm cause I was sleeping at Sam and Charlie's. OMFG they are sooo annoying when they find stuff out haha. Was texting Sam all night and they we're both "JUST TELL HIM!" and "TEXT UPDATE!" So they sat reading the texts so they could see where I was, then somehow Jake found out that I liked Sam. So I was playing dumb and he just went "Emma, please I know. It's clear" -.-" 

So in the end...I told Sam that I liked him. And he text back, quite sometime after saying "It wasn't that bad was it? And anyway, what's to say I don't like you? :) xxx" :D I died haha, so yeah haha. Then was talking to Jake and he sent a message back saying something like "Sam just told me he said yes to me asking if he liked you" Soooo pretty happy haha. 

Aww he sent me a text this morning saying, "Morning :) xx" Boom made my day, been speaking to him since...11:00am all the way up tp now which is 11:00pm haha. So basically all day through texts :') Happy happy happy! 

I have honestly done nothing for the past month but fucking smile, laugh and giggle. It's truly the best feeling in the world! And I'm so happy that I feel like this because it's WONDERFUL! I haven't felt like this in a while and I definitively haven't felt this happy. I LOVE IT!! Haha :')

I dunno what else I can say, apart from I'm going to the caravan with Aileen tomorrow till Thursday, got the party on Saturday and maybe Sam might be coming haha, Jake may drag him along. Also Might be seeing Sam on Friday but I have no idea yet, still planning that one haha. Ville explains how I feel right now haha, and also the one of Barney dancing :') 

So yeah, probably won't be a post for a while, till after the party probably ;) So I guess I'll let you know what happens then haha. Sooo gonna be fucking late tomorrow and fuck no's how I'm going to get to Doncaster in time for 12:00am haha, well Pm xD

Night All!!! :D xxx