Merry Christmas!!

BOOM!!! It's Christmas!!
Hey guys, how's it hanging?

Well, yesterday I took a quick trip to Meadowhall to get some extra shit for Christmas...(I advise you, don't go shopping on xmas eve in a big mall, it's pointless and you will die of hotness and death haha) But yeah, got all the shopping done and finished.

Came home, wrapped my brother's present up with was a dozen on krispy kreme doughnuts, a BMTH poster for Lew, BMTH CD for Lew also but from the mother and father and some stuff from Lush for me from the mother and father. So yeah, finished all that.

Then got in the bath, had a nice soak and a bit of a read of the book, which I have nearly finished in a week! Quite chuffed with myself about that haha. Cause I've got nothing else to do really - well, I do have a piece of coursework to do for college that I haven't even started yet, which I will have to start soon URGH...

But I will get it done before I go back to college, even if it means staying up till 2:00am to get it finished like a day before I go back. I was trying to write chapter 31...YES 31!! I'm so happy and proud of myself about it haha, didn't think I would get that far in this story :D Woo! But yeah, that failed cause I had no creative juice flowing...through my mind! Ha - Perverts xD Shameful.

Um..I've bought HP&THBP on DVD which was only £4.99 from HMV. Which is a bargain, and then I also bought HP&TDHP2 BOOOOM! Which was only £8.49. Bargain! It's £13 at CO-OP, greedy fuckers, like they need more money! Apparently people we're cuing up to get in today :O Haha.

But other than that I've done nothing, kind of had a little argument with Lew which sucked, and just made me feel like shit all day and worry about it. But it's all sorted now, it was one of those things that it's like their fault but then they switch it round to make it sound like you're fault then make you feel bad -__-

See! Alex agrees, good boy. Seeing them in January!! AHHH omfg going to be epic, then seeing YG in February WEEE haha. First two gigs of 2012...Haha had to think about writing that at first, nearly wrote 2011 :P

But I'm off to bed, seeing as I have to wake up at 10:00am in the morning to open presents, which I'm happy about, but also going to be really tired, but I suppose I can hopefully get wasted..and if not, get wasted on New Years haha. Oh shit, best make some New Year's Resolutions :P

Gotta have a bot of Barney on this blog haha. But yeah, I'm off to bed as I'm starting to loose focus of my keyboard and my mind also. Since is 2:02am

Oh I finished work all together now! :'( But that's another story to tell another day.

Night all, hope you all have a wonderful Christmas and new year, love you guys..if there actually any followers or readers xD Possibly not Emma, you're just writing to yourself here haha.

Emma xx

MERRY CHRISTMAS AND A HAPPY NEW YEAR!!! HAVE A WONDERFUL TIME!!! xxx

Drug Run? Or Just Screaming?

Hey guys,

Okay, so this post is going to sound really weird, but I needed to blog it because something just isn't right at the bottom of my road.

So I was just in bed reading when all of a sudden these high pitched screams start from the bottom of the road. Women screams.

At first I though it was someone just pratting around, like they usually do, cause there morons. But then they didn't sound like joke screams, and I didn't hear any laughter after.

So just wondering, I look out my window and see a chick run across the road and down this path onto the housing estate at the bottom of the road. Then there was a white car parked, and a guy, like a meter away from it placing something on the floor.

At first I thought it was a dog, lile he was going to hit it or something, just stopping cause it needes to do business instead of going in the car. Or he was just leaving it there in the cold. But then he got in the cat again and it speed off down the road.

So I went downstairs to check and get a better look to see if it was a dog, when in fact it was a cardboard box. There was a guy stood facing my direction looking straight at me as I was looking out the window, to see what was happening.

Next minute the sprints it up the road and out of sight. Then a peron walked out of the bottom street, walked up the the package, picked it up and checked it, then walked back to his house.

I went back upstairs and began to read again, when I heard shouting again, looked out my window and saw two chicks walk up to where the package was dropped off, woth flashlights looking around the place for the box, moving the grass and everything. Then they gave up and walked home.

So my theory is there there has just been a drug drop off at the bottom of my road. Hmm, but I just needed to tell someone that's all.

Night xx

Well..Now I feel bad

Hey guys,

I feel bad because I was in the middle of a phone call from Lew, and he's called all the way from Africa and it just cut off in mid sentence. But I was talking and he'd called and shit like that, if that makes sense? I just feel really bad urgh -.- I hope it wasn't me that clicked end call, I hope it was like he ran out of money for the call or something, cause then I would just feel totally shocking.

He comes home on Thursday, but he doesn't actually get to his house till 1:00am on Wednesday. God, I feel awful :'( Missing him so much, didn't get to say I loved him, but he should know I already do :) To pieces. He's such a babe.

But trying to get on a good note, I had work today. Was supposed to be there at 2:30pm but miss-read the calendar and thought I was working at  5:30. But I got some missed calls and a voice message telling me that I was supposed to be on at 2:30 by Lias. So I rushed my way to meadowhall and got there as quick as I could, which was at 4:30. Was panicking so much, was nearly in tears thinking I was going to get shouted at so bad.

But Katie said it was fine and not to worry next time, she's awesome. Was on today with Chloe and Curtis :D Was a laugh and much fun hehe love them two. Was on tills all day also! Woo, then finished at 8:30. Got all my times sorted out for next week..my last week D: Omg I don't want to leave, love it so much :'( Going to miss everyone haha

I'm working on Monday, Thursday, Friday and Saturday next week, well if they don't cut me off some days or change the times. Hopefully they won't.

I've just finished chapter 28 of Winter Kiss and now currently writing chapter 29. Jesus, it's the most I've ever written in a story, so proud of myself. But this was only a quick update, I feel so bad about Lewbear still :'( Hope he's okay and didn't think I was mad at him or anything. Can't wait to see him on Wednesday. Counting down the days :P Can't wait till xmas either weee

But I'm off to bed, night all!
Emma xx

Welcome To Candyland...

Hey guys, long time no chat eh?

First off, my teeth feel weird o.O strange huh? Writing this blog post because I cannot get to sleep, to save my life -.- fail, I know.

Anyway some news for you all! I recently got an xmas temp job at a card shop called birthdays, and it's my last week next week :'( so bummed I won't be working there for longer, bloody love it. I should be getting something like £111 paid into my bank accot tomorrow..well, today. Wooo!

Hope it get's paid in to, since I really need to start saving for Finland now. I did have £60 in my bank but then I spent it on xmas presents. And I need to use some of my work money for my bro's present and to send presents off to different countries, which will cost a fucking bomb! Urgh, I'm never going to get to go to Finland. Damn, how many 'to' did I just write? Haha

But yeah, I'm loving work, theres sone lovely people. Well, there all lovely actually. Like Layla, Katie, Chloe, Rosie, Oliver, Sarah, Crutis and so forth! Going to miss them after :( it's given me somethibg to do this job, instead of being sat on my ass all day throughout the week. Just hope they will keep me for next year xmas temp. Earning a bit of money too!

Was on the tills all day today, was wonderful. Loved it, had a laugh as well with Layla, Rosie and katie. There all babes :) Will miss them!!!! :'( sad face.

Right now I'm trying to get to sleep, but it's epically failing. Nearly finished Cresendo book, and fuck me! What a twist and na biting book so far! Loved every minute of it. Only got one more chapter to read woo, then onto next book. I've read 7 chapters in 2 hours today, quite proud of myself hehe. Can't wait to read the rest.

I have decided that I will try and add work friends on fb, and also that whenever I need to buy a card in the future, I shall always go to Birthdays. Plus I can just pop in and say hello! :) I'm working on Sat, was supposed to be working tomorrow but I've beeb cut off -__- day off though! Would prefer to work though haha.

Lew's gone on holiday and I'm missing him so much, want someone to cuddle in bed with me
:'( he will be back on Tuesday though.

But I'm off to try and get some sleep, night all. Post soon!
Emma xx

E.g. Elf at Birthdays ;) x

Oh Sometimes I Get A Good Feeling.

Hey guys!


I know I haven't been on here in a while and I'm sorry but in all honesty, I just couldn't be assed to write a post haha. Not been up to much, was Lew's birthday yesterday and we went out to Taybarns for a dinner. Was me, Lew, his dad and his new girlfriend. Talk about fucking awkward -__- She was okay, but still. 


But you all know I hate his dad, and I think Lew knows now so...yeah :/ He told me today that if he wants clothing he has to pay for it, which is fair, but he has to pay for underwear and socks and shit like that. The fuck!? 
Right, he really needs a new coat for the winter and he's asked his dad and he was just all, "You want it, pay for yourself" - A coat! A fucking coat to keep him warm throughout the winter, it's not even that much. 


He asked if he would pay half towards it and lew pays the other half and his dad was all "No" Yet he can spend £700 on a new fucking camera for himself?! FUCKING DICKHEAD! He pisses me off so fucking much! Selfish cunt. 




<-- What my mind is like when his dad speaks RAGE!!!!


And to make matters worst, to get me pissed off even more is the fact that some people are having a party near the house, which is fair dues. But when you have been playing music at excruciating levels since 8:00pm up till nearly 2:00am. I think that's where  you draw the line and STFU!! I mean seriously, there a kids next door who are like 3, be quiet! Selfish fuckers. 


When I had my parties I turned my music down at 11:00pm, still had it playing but just turned down and then at 12:00pm I had it turned off, cause I'm nice like that. Wish I fucking had Slipknot playing till 2:00am now. Cunts. 
To make it worse they just have shitty chav music playing for 6 hours straight, on repeat! ARGHHHHHHHH!!!!







Then my mate at college just pissed me off to the max, when I was talking to him about making a band outside of college, being serious and everything. Cause the week before when I was talking to him about it, he was all "Oh yeah, that would be cool. I'm up for that" So when I said to him today about it, and starting it up after the Christmas holiday's he was all "Oh I can't" So I asked why, Then he says that he's starting to take music seriously now and doesn't want to do anything like that cause it's not something you do. Then said that he was taking his course serious aiming at me that I wasn't cause I have considered about being in a band outside of college. 


WHAT THE FUCK!? I'm sorry, but you don't think at all that you have to get into bands at college, on a fucking music course! And do gigs round Rotherham and Sheffield because that's not taking you're course serious? What the fuck we're you expecting of a fucking MUSIC COURSE? Wanker! 


I mean seriously, he tells me that I'm not taking the course seriously cause I've talked about being in a band outside of college, think that's what you're supposed to do mate. Be in a band and earn a living off gig money and shit. Alright wanker, don't talk to me about being serious when I travel an hour to get to Rotherham when you live up the road and say "CBA" to go!! AN HOUR! 2 BUSES THERE AND BACK. 


I'm sorry, what did you get on you're 2 essays? Pass?...Oh I'm sorry I kicked you're ass and got 2 Distinctions, Christ! How selfish of me, I must of not been taking the lesson seriously!
FUCKING BELL END!! 









I'm off to bed, I can't be assed to do any more fucking coursework and will do it in the morning, for now I need sleep and relaxation -__-


Emma, Out! xx

Underdog, Just Look At The Mess You Made!

Hey guys!

Sorry I haven't posted in a while, but I thought it would be good to post now since I'm sat waiting for the bus at Rotherham interchange and it wont be here for another 21 Minutes -__- been waiting since 7:15pm.

Yeah, I finish college at that time on a Tuesday. In other notes, don't you just hate it when you get right cocky chavy girls who just randomly speak to you and take the piss? I mean, I would understand if I was all in black, or in my tartan trousers. But I'm just wearing a pair of faded black jeans. Striped long sleeve top and a coat from BHS. I mean, how is that eveb different?
I just don't get some people, I really don't. Ooh, 19 Minutes left! Thank god for that, can't wait to get home. Kebab to eat aswell, nom.

Today's been good, just really tired, but home time soon so that's good. Chris is still an anoying sod, but eh, what can you do? Been with Leanne, Sam and Jake today, since I have no idea where Aileen and eveyone went. But it was nice to hang with them haha. Sam and Jake took Leanne's fags, so she was following them everywhere. To sat she smokes alot, she only had about 3 today. Which is good cause she usually has about 6 haha...

I think my bus is here! HOOZAH!...Or maybe not. Fucks sake!
Band practice was fun, though cba with it really but was a laugh like usual.

OMFG! I thought I broke a piece of Sonar equipment today during sequencing, I nearly started crying haha go so panicked about it thinking I would have to pay like £1,000. And I coudlnt fix it and then Ian tried and he couldn't fix it either. Omg, it was so bad. But then Andi came in and yanked it out with force, fucks sake. He's a hero of a teacher haha

Love Andi, much better than Dave or Ian. He's actually fun and does have a laugh, unlike the other two.
Oh I had a halloween party! Don't even know if I've told you about it but it was awesome. And Si from college came haha, was good.

11 Minutes for the bus now, yay! Will probably fall asleep on it though lol. Was going to say something and completely forgot...oh well.
Remembered it! I was thinking how much I used to eat at secondary to college now, and that's..

Secondary:
Chrisps,
Chicken burger, chrisps and choc, drink,
Tea.

College:
Bun,
Drink,
Chrisps,
Maybe chicken and chips,
Then tea.

But I'm going to go now lol.
Bye and night haha
Emma xx :)

Oh Make Me Over, I'm All I Wanna Be...

Hey guys, sorry I haven't posted in a while.

But first off I'm going to have to have a massive fuck off rant, because I hate Lewis's dad so much, and I really do wish that it was Him that died instead of his mum. I don't really give a shit who See's this because he's just been pissing me off.

He's a selfish cunt, who only thinks of himself, he doesn't give a shit about Lewis and even his sister. Cause she's stressed out about her wedding yet he doesn't give a shit, Lew's upset about his mum yet his dad still pisses off to a different country on a 'holiday' for two weeks and hardly leaves him with any money or food in the house.

He's an insensitive bastard and I fucking hate him, WITH A FUCKING VENGEANCE!!! ARGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH

FUCKING WANKER, HE'S SUCH A BASTARDING CUNT, I HATE HIM!!!!

Lewis was supposed to be coming to mine tonight, he had band practice and it finished at 9:00pm. But Lew's dad knew that he was coming to mine, yet he doesn't offer to give him a lift to mine.
So when I asked him if his dad was working the next day he Say's "No" so I was all "Oh right, can't he give you a lift then?" And his reply was "He's had a drink" So I said "Did he know you we're coming to mine tonight?" and Lew said "Yes"...

"YES!!" His dad knew he was coming so he has a drink so he can't take him, so now Lew is waiting at the bus stop in Hillsbrough on his own at 11:18pm at night, where someone got stabbed last month and his dad doesn't give two shit's if his son is okay and if he got stabbed he wouldn't give a fucking shit.

I mean, what kind of parent is that?! Wanker, I fucking hate him! And it pisses me off how everyone thinks he's a saint still, Lew's all "Oh he's my dad" If he was my fucking dad and he did that I wouldn't want anything to do with him. C.U.N.T!!

But yeah, that's my rant over because I'm happy now xD

College has been great this week, many laugh's been shared. Then on Wednesday I went to school to help out in woodwork with Mr Williams cause this chick needs extra help cause she turned up halfway through the year, she's nice though. Lovely person but very shy :)

Thursday caught the bus from Handsworth to Dinnington to spend time with my Nanan and Granddad which was wonderful. Had a really nice time and will be doing it again next week also :) I love my Nan and Granddad so much, words just can't describe. There so sweet and lovely, don't know what I'd do without them :)

Then on the same day we went to Bonfire night at Bev's which was okay until Sam's mates came over who we're complete assholes. I was being nice to them and everything! Saying Hello and the lot yet they just ignored it and ignored me for that matter so they can do one. Whores.

Then finally, today me and mum went to see the film Contagion which was awesome by the way. It makes you think though, it's one of those thinking films, yet it was good and would go and see/watch it again, but I don't know if I would buy it on DVD. But it was nice to spend time with my mum :)
There was an advert for a new film with Johnny Depp in called The Rum Diary, and omg it looks piss funny xD Really need to go and see that when it comes out.

And now Lewis is finally at our house, since his dad was a bastard. He's pissed me off a right load. Dickhead. We are now sat downstairs watching Oceans Eleven, but it's a bit shit if you ask me. But then again, I haven't watched it from the beginning and only halfway through. So I have no idea what is happening right now.

Oh speaking of which, in that new Johnny Depp film, there looks like there's a rather sexy sex scene in it hehe...What? A girls got to have a mind. Plus I am 17, nearly 18 haha.

Night all!
Emma xx