HAPPY NEW YEAR 2012!!!

Okay so I know it says it in the title but I just want to write it again, but in big colourful style!! Haha

HAPPY NEW YEAR!!!!!!!!

I can't believe that it's 2012 already, I mean it only seems just like yesterday, that I was sat at Lew's house counting down towards 2011. And that year has flown by it really has, I just can't believe it's gone that fast.

I have some new years resolutions for 2012 that I shall hopefully stick to and they will happen :)
1. Learn to stop sucking my thumb (I know it's bad that I still do it but I don't give a shit)
2. Go on the drums more, like 3 times a week :)
3. To stay with Lewis up to 20th September, and be together for 3 years.

So hopefully those will happen, but me and Lew have been fine recently which is good and I'm happy about :D

I had a great 2011 and met some wonderful and new people and I'm glad I did. It was very fun and I can't wait for 2012 to really start. It's been full of smiles, laughter and not really that much tears if I'm quite honest haha, but it's been great. I've found out I'm not allergic to some Lush products which is amazing, I've finished my first Book Challenge and completed it. So now I need to set myself a new goal for 2012.

I hope that 2012 brings much more for me in life, and for everyone in my life. I wish the best for my family and friends, Lewis and his friends and Dawn Of A New Day. I don't know what else I can really so, I'm just hoping you the best of your start to the New Year!

Love Emma :)
xx

Lost In You, And I Can't Find Myself Again...

RECAP OF LAST NIGHT!

So in the end my dad ended up coming to pick me up, because I couldn't be assed to wait any longer for her. Which I felt bad about cause before I went dad was all "I'm going to bed at 10:30pm so if you decide you want a lift, it will have to be before then" - So I ended up calling dad at 11:30pm out of desperation cause I cba to wait anymore, even though Shaun's mum was giving me and the chick a lift back, but I knew that some shit would kick off if we were both in the car and I said I was going home.

But yeah, dad came and picked me up (Love him to death) and I just ended up going home and feeling sorry for myself haha but I did write up a new chapter of Winter Kiss, it was kinda shit but ah well.

PRESENT DAY:

So today, I was supposed to go to Town with some friends, but they bailed out on me too cause apparently it was "Raining too much"...Was it fucking balls! The only time it rained was when I was waiting at the bus stop at the bottom of the road, and that was just drizzle. It was fine when I got off the bus in town and was there for a good hour and 30 min and it didn't rain once! Then when I got off the bus when I was home it started to drizzle. DRIZZLE!
Oh my days, I couldn't believe it when they text me saying that, I was like

But meh! I still fucking went to town, was I balls going to miss out on a Lush 50% off in store, ha! Yeah recently I've found out I'm not allergic to some of their stuff and it actually helps my eczema. Which I find amazing, cause all the creams I have used over the years, and Lush beats them all. How does that work!?

So now I shall post some pictures of what I bought at Lush. Was only going in to spend £2.30 but ended up spending £7.69 :O I was so shocked and I only bought 3 things! But I'm going to post what I got for xmas too, so yeah. Let's begin!..So I did take photo's but it's not letting me upload them, so I'm just going to have to use photo's off the web -__-...Never mind, turned out they wouldn't upload because I was signed in on my other gmail account -__- I'm such a retard I know. I have too many email accounts you see, pft!

Anyways, onwards!!

 So this is called Vanilla Fountain, as you can see on the packet. It's this lovely scented bath bomb, and I'm really happy because I never thought that I would be able to have anything like this, but I can now. So yay!..Though I haven't used it yet, but I can't wait to do so, bought this one today, though sadly it wasn't in the 50% off sale and came to £3.05.

This one is called 'You've Been Mangoed' and it's a lovely, fruity smelling bath bar. Which has now become one of my favourite things from Lush. It smells so nice, and it's also so soothing on the skin, making my eczema feel much better when I'm in and out of the bath. I now don't constantly itch my arms and legs, which is awesome :) Very happy with this product, makes you smell and feel fresh after, plus makes you're skin so soft :)

I love this soap so much, it's gorgeous! It's called Snow Globe and sadly they only sell it at Christmas and round about that time. The piece that is already unwrapped I got for Christmas, which was a pretty decent amount, small but decent. I didn't want to use it all up so I cut it in half, and that piece is  the other half, I still have the other haha. Smells like Lemon Sherbet sweets haha om nom nom.

The one wrapped up behind it is the one I bought today, this was in the 50% sale. I nearly died when I found out, I bought that piece. It should have been £2.95 but got it half price and it came to £1.47 :D I just wished I bought a bigger piece now cause I could of got much more the the actual price. I may have to go back and collect more, cause this won't last! Haha

This was one of the first products I purchased, well my mum did haha. I received this also as a Christmas present, along with the Snow Globe Soap. I wasn't sure on the smell of it at first, but once it gets into the water it smells fine. I only used a small amount of it at first, cause of my eczema and that. But I was okay with it, which is good and it's also very soothing. But I don't think it beats the Mango one for the skin, cause that helped wonders. Will definitely be buying that one again. But yeah, Butterball smells wonderful once in the bath, though I wasn't very good with it the 2nd time and it itched my skin a little, but I put much more in the 2nd time than I did the 1st. So maybe not as much for this one. But it's still lovely.


So that's the Lush products all on there for you, if anyone does read this though, and you do have bad eczema or just eczema in general, I do recommend these products as they work wonders with sensitive skin! (Especially the Mango ;) become very found of that one, can you tell?)

At the moment, I'm getting very sleepy haha I've been writing some more of 'When I Kissed The Teacher' which is a new original story I'm currently writing. Though this one is going at it's own pace and will hopefully become and mean much more than the ones with famous people in. I will hopefully finish it too haha. Might print it off in a book format for myself, it's not going to any publishers cause they won't like it haha. Though one day I do wish to write my own book, and one day it will happen, just you wait! :)

High hopes and big dreams!

Speaking of dreams, I think I'm off to bed now, since I'm bloody shattered! Might try and do a bit of reading haha :P

Night all!!

Love, Emma xx

The Invisible Person

I always end up as the invisible person at parties. It's a fact.

I was supposed to be sleeping at mates, yet some how we ended up at a party, which is cool. Unless the friend just completely blanks you and fucks off with someone else, which usually fucking happens.

It was all supposed to be a fun night, but she's got pissed off her fucking face, ignoing me and by the time we get back to fucking her house, she will probably pass out, out or throw up or just cry for fucking hours. Great.

People wont stop fucking singing and it's just fucking wonderful. I just actually want to go home, but I doubt that's going to happen, if we don't go to hers soon I swear I'm just going to catch a bus or walk the fuck home. Wish I never fucking came, and just stayed at home.

It's nice to know you're always the 3rd wheel in your friends ain't it?
:/

Later.

Merry Christmas!!

BOOM!!! It's Christmas!!
Hey guys, how's it hanging?

Well, yesterday I took a quick trip to Meadowhall to get some extra shit for Christmas...(I advise you, don't go shopping on xmas eve in a big mall, it's pointless and you will die of hotness and death haha) But yeah, got all the shopping done and finished.

Came home, wrapped my brother's present up with was a dozen on krispy kreme doughnuts, a BMTH poster for Lew, BMTH CD for Lew also but from the mother and father and some stuff from Lush for me from the mother and father. So yeah, finished all that.

Then got in the bath, had a nice soak and a bit of a read of the book, which I have nearly finished in a week! Quite chuffed with myself about that haha. Cause I've got nothing else to do really - well, I do have a piece of coursework to do for college that I haven't even started yet, which I will have to start soon URGH...

But I will get it done before I go back to college, even if it means staying up till 2:00am to get it finished like a day before I go back. I was trying to write chapter 31...YES 31!! I'm so happy and proud of myself about it haha, didn't think I would get that far in this story :D Woo! But yeah, that failed cause I had no creative juice flowing...through my mind! Ha - Perverts xD Shameful.

Um..I've bought HP&THBP on DVD which was only £4.99 from HMV. Which is a bargain, and then I also bought HP&TDHP2 BOOOOM! Which was only £8.49. Bargain! It's £13 at CO-OP, greedy fuckers, like they need more money! Apparently people we're cuing up to get in today :O Haha.

But other than that I've done nothing, kind of had a little argument with Lew which sucked, and just made me feel like shit all day and worry about it. But it's all sorted now, it was one of those things that it's like their fault but then they switch it round to make it sound like you're fault then make you feel bad -__-

See! Alex agrees, good boy. Seeing them in January!! AHHH omfg going to be epic, then seeing YG in February WEEE haha. First two gigs of 2012...Haha had to think about writing that at first, nearly wrote 2011 :P

But I'm off to bed, seeing as I have to wake up at 10:00am in the morning to open presents, which I'm happy about, but also going to be really tired, but I suppose I can hopefully get wasted..and if not, get wasted on New Years haha. Oh shit, best make some New Year's Resolutions :P

Gotta have a bot of Barney on this blog haha. But yeah, I'm off to bed as I'm starting to loose focus of my keyboard and my mind also. Since is 2:02am

Oh I finished work all together now! :'( But that's another story to tell another day.

Night all, hope you all have a wonderful Christmas and new year, love you guys..if there actually any followers or readers xD Possibly not Emma, you're just writing to yourself here haha.

Emma xx

MERRY CHRISTMAS AND A HAPPY NEW YEAR!!! HAVE A WONDERFUL TIME!!! xxx

Drug Run? Or Just Screaming?

Hey guys,

Okay, so this post is going to sound really weird, but I needed to blog it because something just isn't right at the bottom of my road.

So I was just in bed reading when all of a sudden these high pitched screams start from the bottom of the road. Women screams.

At first I though it was someone just pratting around, like they usually do, cause there morons. But then they didn't sound like joke screams, and I didn't hear any laughter after.

So just wondering, I look out my window and see a chick run across the road and down this path onto the housing estate at the bottom of the road. Then there was a white car parked, and a guy, like a meter away from it placing something on the floor.

At first I thought it was a dog, lile he was going to hit it or something, just stopping cause it needes to do business instead of going in the car. Or he was just leaving it there in the cold. But then he got in the cat again and it speed off down the road.

So I went downstairs to check and get a better look to see if it was a dog, when in fact it was a cardboard box. There was a guy stood facing my direction looking straight at me as I was looking out the window, to see what was happening.

Next minute the sprints it up the road and out of sight. Then a peron walked out of the bottom street, walked up the the package, picked it up and checked it, then walked back to his house.

I went back upstairs and began to read again, when I heard shouting again, looked out my window and saw two chicks walk up to where the package was dropped off, woth flashlights looking around the place for the box, moving the grass and everything. Then they gave up and walked home.

So my theory is there there has just been a drug drop off at the bottom of my road. Hmm, but I just needed to tell someone that's all.

Night xx

Well..Now I feel bad

Hey guys,

I feel bad because I was in the middle of a phone call from Lew, and he's called all the way from Africa and it just cut off in mid sentence. But I was talking and he'd called and shit like that, if that makes sense? I just feel really bad urgh -.- I hope it wasn't me that clicked end call, I hope it was like he ran out of money for the call or something, cause then I would just feel totally shocking.

He comes home on Thursday, but he doesn't actually get to his house till 1:00am on Wednesday. God, I feel awful :'( Missing him so much, didn't get to say I loved him, but he should know I already do :) To pieces. He's such a babe.

But trying to get on a good note, I had work today. Was supposed to be there at 2:30pm but miss-read the calendar and thought I was working at  5:30. But I got some missed calls and a voice message telling me that I was supposed to be on at 2:30 by Lias. So I rushed my way to meadowhall and got there as quick as I could, which was at 4:30. Was panicking so much, was nearly in tears thinking I was going to get shouted at so bad.

But Katie said it was fine and not to worry next time, she's awesome. Was on today with Chloe and Curtis :D Was a laugh and much fun hehe love them two. Was on tills all day also! Woo, then finished at 8:30. Got all my times sorted out for next week..my last week D: Omg I don't want to leave, love it so much :'( Going to miss everyone haha

I'm working on Monday, Thursday, Friday and Saturday next week, well if they don't cut me off some days or change the times. Hopefully they won't.

I've just finished chapter 28 of Winter Kiss and now currently writing chapter 29. Jesus, it's the most I've ever written in a story, so proud of myself. But this was only a quick update, I feel so bad about Lewbear still :'( Hope he's okay and didn't think I was mad at him or anything. Can't wait to see him on Wednesday. Counting down the days :P Can't wait till xmas either weee

But I'm off to bed, night all!
Emma xx

Welcome To Candyland...

Hey guys, long time no chat eh?

First off, my teeth feel weird o.O strange huh? Writing this blog post because I cannot get to sleep, to save my life -.- fail, I know.

Anyway some news for you all! I recently got an xmas temp job at a card shop called birthdays, and it's my last week next week :'( so bummed I won't be working there for longer, bloody love it. I should be getting something like £111 paid into my bank accot tomorrow..well, today. Wooo!

Hope it get's paid in to, since I really need to start saving for Finland now. I did have £60 in my bank but then I spent it on xmas presents. And I need to use some of my work money for my bro's present and to send presents off to different countries, which will cost a fucking bomb! Urgh, I'm never going to get to go to Finland. Damn, how many 'to' did I just write? Haha

But yeah, I'm loving work, theres sone lovely people. Well, there all lovely actually. Like Layla, Katie, Chloe, Rosie, Oliver, Sarah, Crutis and so forth! Going to miss them after :( it's given me somethibg to do this job, instead of being sat on my ass all day throughout the week. Just hope they will keep me for next year xmas temp. Earning a bit of money too!

Was on the tills all day today, was wonderful. Loved it, had a laugh as well with Layla, Rosie and katie. There all babes :) Will miss them!!!! :'( sad face.

Right now I'm trying to get to sleep, but it's epically failing. Nearly finished Cresendo book, and fuck me! What a twist and na biting book so far! Loved every minute of it. Only got one more chapter to read woo, then onto next book. I've read 7 chapters in 2 hours today, quite proud of myself hehe. Can't wait to read the rest.

I have decided that I will try and add work friends on fb, and also that whenever I need to buy a card in the future, I shall always go to Birthdays. Plus I can just pop in and say hello! :) I'm working on Sat, was supposed to be working tomorrow but I've beeb cut off -__- day off though! Would prefer to work though haha.

Lew's gone on holiday and I'm missing him so much, want someone to cuddle in bed with me
:'( he will be back on Tuesday though.

But I'm off to try and get some sleep, night all. Post soon!
Emma xx

E.g. Elf at Birthdays ;) x

Oh Sometimes I Get A Good Feeling.

Hey guys!


I know I haven't been on here in a while and I'm sorry but in all honesty, I just couldn't be assed to write a post haha. Not been up to much, was Lew's birthday yesterday and we went out to Taybarns for a dinner. Was me, Lew, his dad and his new girlfriend. Talk about fucking awkward -__- She was okay, but still. 


But you all know I hate his dad, and I think Lew knows now so...yeah :/ He told me today that if he wants clothing he has to pay for it, which is fair, but he has to pay for underwear and socks and shit like that. The fuck!? 
Right, he really needs a new coat for the winter and he's asked his dad and he was just all, "You want it, pay for yourself" - A coat! A fucking coat to keep him warm throughout the winter, it's not even that much. 


He asked if he would pay half towards it and lew pays the other half and his dad was all "No" Yet he can spend £700 on a new fucking camera for himself?! FUCKING DICKHEAD! He pisses me off so fucking much! Selfish cunt. 




<-- What my mind is like when his dad speaks RAGE!!!!


And to make matters worst, to get me pissed off even more is the fact that some people are having a party near the house, which is fair dues. But when you have been playing music at excruciating levels since 8:00pm up till nearly 2:00am. I think that's where  you draw the line and STFU!! I mean seriously, there a kids next door who are like 3, be quiet! Selfish fuckers. 


When I had my parties I turned my music down at 11:00pm, still had it playing but just turned down and then at 12:00pm I had it turned off, cause I'm nice like that. Wish I fucking had Slipknot playing till 2:00am now. Cunts. 
To make it worse they just have shitty chav music playing for 6 hours straight, on repeat! ARGHHHHHHHH!!!!







Then my mate at college just pissed me off to the max, when I was talking to him about making a band outside of college, being serious and everything. Cause the week before when I was talking to him about it, he was all "Oh yeah, that would be cool. I'm up for that" So when I said to him today about it, and starting it up after the Christmas holiday's he was all "Oh I can't" So I asked why, Then he says that he's starting to take music seriously now and doesn't want to do anything like that cause it's not something you do. Then said that he was taking his course serious aiming at me that I wasn't cause I have considered about being in a band outside of college. 


WHAT THE FUCK!? I'm sorry, but you don't think at all that you have to get into bands at college, on a fucking music course! And do gigs round Rotherham and Sheffield because that's not taking you're course serious? What the fuck we're you expecting of a fucking MUSIC COURSE? Wanker! 


I mean seriously, he tells me that I'm not taking the course seriously cause I've talked about being in a band outside of college, think that's what you're supposed to do mate. Be in a band and earn a living off gig money and shit. Alright wanker, don't talk to me about being serious when I travel an hour to get to Rotherham when you live up the road and say "CBA" to go!! AN HOUR! 2 BUSES THERE AND BACK. 


I'm sorry, what did you get on you're 2 essays? Pass?...Oh I'm sorry I kicked you're ass and got 2 Distinctions, Christ! How selfish of me, I must of not been taking the lesson seriously!
FUCKING BELL END!! 









I'm off to bed, I can't be assed to do any more fucking coursework and will do it in the morning, for now I need sleep and relaxation -__-


Emma, Out! xx

Underdog, Just Look At The Mess You Made!

Hey guys!

Sorry I haven't posted in a while, but I thought it would be good to post now since I'm sat waiting for the bus at Rotherham interchange and it wont be here for another 21 Minutes -__- been waiting since 7:15pm.

Yeah, I finish college at that time on a Tuesday. In other notes, don't you just hate it when you get right cocky chavy girls who just randomly speak to you and take the piss? I mean, I would understand if I was all in black, or in my tartan trousers. But I'm just wearing a pair of faded black jeans. Striped long sleeve top and a coat from BHS. I mean, how is that eveb different?
I just don't get some people, I really don't. Ooh, 19 Minutes left! Thank god for that, can't wait to get home. Kebab to eat aswell, nom.

Today's been good, just really tired, but home time soon so that's good. Chris is still an anoying sod, but eh, what can you do? Been with Leanne, Sam and Jake today, since I have no idea where Aileen and eveyone went. But it was nice to hang with them haha. Sam and Jake took Leanne's fags, so she was following them everywhere. To sat she smokes alot, she only had about 3 today. Which is good cause she usually has about 6 haha...

I think my bus is here! HOOZAH!...Or maybe not. Fucks sake!
Band practice was fun, though cba with it really but was a laugh like usual.

OMFG! I thought I broke a piece of Sonar equipment today during sequencing, I nearly started crying haha go so panicked about it thinking I would have to pay like £1,000. And I coudlnt fix it and then Ian tried and he couldn't fix it either. Omg, it was so bad. But then Andi came in and yanked it out with force, fucks sake. He's a hero of a teacher haha

Love Andi, much better than Dave or Ian. He's actually fun and does have a laugh, unlike the other two.
Oh I had a halloween party! Don't even know if I've told you about it but it was awesome. And Si from college came haha, was good.

11 Minutes for the bus now, yay! Will probably fall asleep on it though lol. Was going to say something and completely forgot...oh well.
Remembered it! I was thinking how much I used to eat at secondary to college now, and that's..

Secondary:
Chrisps,
Chicken burger, chrisps and choc, drink,
Tea.

College:
Bun,
Drink,
Chrisps,
Maybe chicken and chips,
Then tea.

But I'm going to go now lol.
Bye and night haha
Emma xx :)

Oh Make Me Over, I'm All I Wanna Be...

Hey guys, sorry I haven't posted in a while.

But first off I'm going to have to have a massive fuck off rant, because I hate Lewis's dad so much, and I really do wish that it was Him that died instead of his mum. I don't really give a shit who See's this because he's just been pissing me off.

He's a selfish cunt, who only thinks of himself, he doesn't give a shit about Lewis and even his sister. Cause she's stressed out about her wedding yet he doesn't give a shit, Lew's upset about his mum yet his dad still pisses off to a different country on a 'holiday' for two weeks and hardly leaves him with any money or food in the house.

He's an insensitive bastard and I fucking hate him, WITH A FUCKING VENGEANCE!!! ARGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH

FUCKING WANKER, HE'S SUCH A BASTARDING CUNT, I HATE HIM!!!!

Lewis was supposed to be coming to mine tonight, he had band practice and it finished at 9:00pm. But Lew's dad knew that he was coming to mine, yet he doesn't offer to give him a lift to mine.
So when I asked him if his dad was working the next day he Say's "No" so I was all "Oh right, can't he give you a lift then?" And his reply was "He's had a drink" So I said "Did he know you we're coming to mine tonight?" and Lew said "Yes"...

"YES!!" His dad knew he was coming so he has a drink so he can't take him, so now Lew is waiting at the bus stop in Hillsbrough on his own at 11:18pm at night, where someone got stabbed last month and his dad doesn't give two shit's if his son is okay and if he got stabbed he wouldn't give a fucking shit.

I mean, what kind of parent is that?! Wanker, I fucking hate him! And it pisses me off how everyone thinks he's a saint still, Lew's all "Oh he's my dad" If he was my fucking dad and he did that I wouldn't want anything to do with him. C.U.N.T!!

But yeah, that's my rant over because I'm happy now xD

College has been great this week, many laugh's been shared. Then on Wednesday I went to school to help out in woodwork with Mr Williams cause this chick needs extra help cause she turned up halfway through the year, she's nice though. Lovely person but very shy :)

Thursday caught the bus from Handsworth to Dinnington to spend time with my Nanan and Granddad which was wonderful. Had a really nice time and will be doing it again next week also :) I love my Nan and Granddad so much, words just can't describe. There so sweet and lovely, don't know what I'd do without them :)

Then on the same day we went to Bonfire night at Bev's which was okay until Sam's mates came over who we're complete assholes. I was being nice to them and everything! Saying Hello and the lot yet they just ignored it and ignored me for that matter so they can do one. Whores.

Then finally, today me and mum went to see the film Contagion which was awesome by the way. It makes you think though, it's one of those thinking films, yet it was good and would go and see/watch it again, but I don't know if I would buy it on DVD. But it was nice to spend time with my mum :)
There was an advert for a new film with Johnny Depp in called The Rum Diary, and omg it looks piss funny xD Really need to go and see that when it comes out.

And now Lewis is finally at our house, since his dad was a bastard. He's pissed me off a right load. Dickhead. We are now sat downstairs watching Oceans Eleven, but it's a bit shit if you ask me. But then again, I haven't watched it from the beginning and only halfway through. So I have no idea what is happening right now.

Oh speaking of which, in that new Johnny Depp film, there looks like there's a rather sexy sex scene in it hehe...What? A girls got to have a mind. Plus I am 17, nearly 18 haha.

Night all!
Emma xx

Yeah, yeah! The Young And Restless!

Hey guys!

How is everyone tonight/morning?

I'm doing great despite the fact that I'm dancing around in my room at 2:35am in the morning, but that's good isn't it? Tell you what though, I'm bloody boiling now haha

I've not really done much today, well yesterday (I can see this post getting very confusing haha) But yeah. Lewis left this morning to go to band practice which we gave him a lift home. Then went to see my Nan and Granddad which I was please about cause I really wanted to see them, cause I missed them and haven't seen them in a while.

So i went up with mum and dad, dad helped my granddad with the green house whilst me and mum stayed with Nan and looked after her. Was nice, then we came home, I attempted to write Chapter 20 of Winter Kiss, which just failed. I read some of Jill Mansell's - Falling For You. Which was a shock in a chapter, but bloody loved it, only got 30 Chapters left so that's good. May finish it by the end of the week. Though I have got to write two essays and a piece of music for college -__-

I am currently sitting on my bed in red jeans and a bra dancing around to Young Guns - Learn My Lesson at 2:43am in the morning, with it blasting through my earphones. True Bliss. If I get perverts reading my blog now, FUCK OFF YOU WANKERS!!!

But yeah, day's been good. Then went out to McDonald's for tea with Mum, Dad, George, Nan, Granddad, Bev, Sam and Charlie.

On a plus note! I have finally gotten my appetite back, which means I'm eating more and won't become 4 stone, and remain 5 stone. I know it's still bad, but it goes on my height as well, which I'm small only like 4ft 11 or something haha. And I'm 17! That's shocking. But oh well, hopefully I shall become 6 stome so then that's not that bad.

Also, I finally wrote Chapter 20, which I'm very proud of. Damn, 20 chapter son a story, that's a world record, normally I would of gave up by now and wrote a completely different story and left that one behind to rot and decay. But no, fixed it.

I went to one of Lew's mates at the weekend for a movie night, Jesus ended up watching Paranormal Activity and nearly shit myself, still scared a little, but I shall just have to think of something else. Like Young Guns or HIM, or Ville Valor or Gustav Wood haha. Should cheer me up :) But yeah was a good night, in the end we ended up watching Jeepers Creepers which was quite a cool film lol. For fucks sake, I'm scared now! Should never of mentioned it.

Don't Hold You're Breath I'm Not Losing Sleep Over You, I'm Mr. Reckless, With A Capital R!!

Sorry, just burst out singing You Me At Six. How the fuck did I get from listening to HIM, The 69 Eyes, Negative,Murderdolls and shizzle to You Me At Six? [Insert crying face here]

I shall have to listen to them more!

But yeah, there was Me, Lewis, Nadine, Scott, Natalie, Leah, Liam, Joel, Greg, Tom and Nadine's sister Hannah. God she's bloody annoying, but she likes some music I do so that's cool. But then again, mostly everyone that was there do.

In the bad notes, Jess and Ashley split up D: But she didn't want to be treated like shit, and she  hardly saw him and plus she didn't want to drag it on if it wasn't going anywhere, which is fair enough. We're going to meadowhall tomorrow anyways to search for Halloween costumes :D
Cause mum and dad finally let me have a Halloween party after much persuasion, only 15 to 20 we're supposed to be coming and in the end 20-24 are coming so it's not that bad. And only about 5 are sleeping. Which is all gravy, so I have to go out and buy shit for it. Can't fucking wait.

Oooh bought a diary as well for next year, not the diary as in "Oh so and so looked at me today blah" As in the diary where I put important shit in it. It's all blue and sparkly, small and was £1.

But for now I'm off to bed, so G'Night! Love you all whoever reads this haha
Night, Emma xx :)

They say I'm up and coming like I'm fucking in an elevator!!

Heyyyy guys!

Only a short post tonight/morning cause I'm really tired and need a piss really badly haha

Not really done much today, all I've done is read my Jill Mansell book, read stories on mibba and listen to music. Plus also TRY to bloody write chapter 19 of Winter Kiss. And finally, I can tell you that I finished thaf chapter.

Thing was, I thought I would be able to write it seeing as it was like a sex chapter and with my dirty mind, thought it would be bloody easy, but it wasn't! And I got so fucking irritated and frustrated that I couldn't write it. But it's out of the way now haha.

Umm yesterday at college was good, though recently I've been feeling lile shit haha. Hopefully I will feel better soon...still needing that piss by the way. My bladders going to be fucked. Best go.

Anyways as I was saying, college was good on Tuesday. We got a new guy, no ide If I've told you this already but yeah, his names Tyler. Quite nice looking if you ask me haha, but he's a cool guy.
Yeah, woke up late, missed my bus but felt like crap anways. Got in and omg my feet and ankles we're that cold, thought they we're going to fucking fall off. No joke.

So when I entered the room, there was a slight cheer cause I was there. Which I loved hehe, but cause I was freezing, Alex took his hoodie off and wrapped it round me, then Aileen gave me her's, Tyler had stripped off his hoodie and passed it me, then Aileen stole Tom's and I had that aslo. So including my jacket, I had 5 on me haha. Such sweet people abd sweet guys to that point. Love them all.

So I was warm in the end. Alex's hoodie was warm, Aileen's was soft and fluffy, Tom's just smelt like Tom and friendly and Tyler's smelt gorgeous haha om nom nom!
Then we had seequencing, Ian left for pratically nearly an hour so Aileen and Tyler decided to play catch with Popcorn chicken, Tyler has a fetish for chicken and I crawled under the tables, where Tom said that the computer monitors looked like buildings compared to my small body haha.

Then we had band practice and we had to play our cover song infront of the class, which was a bit scary but there all nice people. Aileen was shaking bless her haha. Glad I'm a drummer and at the back lol.
But David and Alex we're fine, David helped Aileen in the end singing also, which was good lol.

Dave filmed us playing our cover and our origional song and we have to listen to them when we're next back. Off for a week now haha, going to get boring, though next Thurs I'm going to Damons with the family and Lew as a small joint birthday with George and the family. Then I've got my Halloween party on the 29th which I have a strong feeling that people haven't got their invites on FB...fucking thing!

But I'm off to bed now haha, very sleepy, didn't even mean to write that much, haha was supposed to be a quick post! Oh well, I have Learn My Lesson by Young Guns on repeat haha.

Nighy guys. I'll speak soon!!
P.s. Have a sleepy photo of Gustav

Let's live tonight like our last

Oh hey guys!

How are we all tonight?...Good I hope.

Today's been okay, just been a sleepy start haha. Was at college from 9am till 4pm today, which wasn't that bad. Though got it tomorrow from 9am till 7:30pm...Damn! I know right? Haha.

But yeah, it's been okay, got a new guy in our class called Tyler, who was on the Level 3/Music Tech course I think, but got moved down cause he was late all the time haha. He seems cool, just need to talk to him more I guess.

I need to get on the drums more too, I feel so ashamed! I've been on the drums, but not been on my actual drum in about 3 months. I feel so bad, it's just sitting there like 'Play Me!' I'm starting to think that I may be going out of it, I bloody hope I'm not but I'm not sure :/ Mmmm? *Sits in the corner and cries over drum kit*

There's this guy on my course and I know he possibly has problems like ADHD, but OMFG! He's so bloody annoying. You're sat in a class talking about music, and he will go completely off subject and talk about random shit like world war 2 or something and it's like.
"Dude! How is that relevant?!"  FFS he's so annoying.

Then today, he was all oh I can do tattooing and got 5 people lined up for tatts, so I just nicely asked does he have a Health & Safety thing. And he just went,
Kris: "No, but you don't need one anyways" ... O.O? <---Me
Me: "Dude, you do. What about all the needles and shit?"
Kris: "Most of the tattooists I know don't have Health & Safety"
Me: "Well there all illegal then, ain't they?"

Oh ffs, he was so annoying.

But other than that, the day has been good. On last Saturday I went to the pics with Jess and Lewis to see The Three Musketeers. Was an awesome film by the way, and just a general laugh to hang out with the best friend and boyfriend. Then on Sunday went to a party at one of Lewis's mates called Joel. Was okay, but filled with chavs everywhere, and I just felt sorry for Joel cause he tried to keep everything in order, plus it was his Granddad's and Nanan's house. Bless him, he's such a nice guy bless him haha.

But then me and Lew and some of his mates just walked off to the graveyard cause the cops ended up coming to the party over a noise complaint. So I got to know some people a bit better and made some new friends.
Was really nice.

But now I'm off to try and write some more chapters of my Winter Kiss story, and hopefully I shall get past this writers block haha.

Goodnight all, talk soon!
Love you all,
Emma xx

A Golden Girl With Golden Hair

Hey guys! How are we all this afternoon?

Well I'm doing great haha, the title is from a You Me At Six song, one of their new ones. And if I'm honest, I don't think it's that good. Not as good as everyone thing it is, I deffinatelly don't think it belongs in the charts, trust me I've heard better albums, but it's not that bad.

But hey! I'm now listening to Wednesday 13's new album 'Calling All Corpses' Pretty awesome from what I've heard so far, much better than the 'Sinners Never Sleep' Ha look at this post, turning into a CD review.

But yeah, college has been okay today, just been really slow to say it's a Monday. Plus I've been really tired, possible for crying all Sunday night....I'll tell you the story shall I?

Basically me and Lewis has a MASSIVE argument, that technically caused us to split up for about 10 minutues, omg I've never been so depressed in my life. I know that makes me sound like a pathetic chick, but I love him so much. I guess I just want things to go back to the way they we're and I think slowly they are, and hopefully they will. But we're okay now and we still go out. HOOZAH! So I'm praying that it won't happen again, cause next time I don't know what will really happen. I haven't told anyone, the only people that know are Lennod and Megan in America cause I know if I tell my mum, shit will kick off and if I tell Jess or Chelsea, then I dunno, I'd never hear the end of it.

It's just I saw him a lot when I was at school, and now that it gets to college and cause we both have different times, it's more awkward. But hopefully it will all work out, otherwise I will be all...



I'll be all crying like Gustav wood and Chocolate depressing like that guy over there haha So yeah...hopefully.

OMFG DAYS! THE NEW WEDNESDAY 13 CD IS FUCKING AWESOME!! IT'S LIKE NUTELLA AND PORN BUT FOR MY EARS!!! :D

Sorry for that outburst and the graphic language (Hehehe) But it's awesome, and must say the old Wednesday's back. Not like Gunfire 76, cause meh that was just pft! A downfall if you ask me. One Knife Stand is the best song on the album so far lol Hehehe

But I think I'm off cause I don't want to be late for college tomorrow for the 2nd time in a row, plus I really need a drink. Really thirsty today for some reason. SoI'm going to get a drink and read a book.

OH I DYED MY HAIR GREEN!! LOOK...

Night lovelies! Love you all!

Emma xx

RAWR I'm A Dinosaur!

Hey bunnies!

How are we all this beautiful evening? Good I hope!

Not been up to much today, pretty much did the same as I did yesterday which was... Music, write, read, write, music, read, music, write, read. The only thing that has changed in that sequence would be bath haha.

But yeah, that's all i've done. Not really much to chat about let alone nothing interesting. Lew is sleeping over at Gavin's tonight, which in all honest. I'm a bit worried about, not Lewis but Gavin. Cause in my honest opinion I think he's gay, but that's just my opinion.

I don't have anything agaisnt gays, don't get me wrong, but when he's a total dick and uses people for cash when their vulnerable (a.k.a Lewis) I don't like them. Meh, that's just me.

I'm falling in love with this Spotify more and more each day. Only downloaded it on Tuesday after college and now in three days I have...299 tracks! Fucking love the thing, got new albums on it aswell like,

Kids In Glass Houses - In Gold Blood
You Me At Six - Sinners Never Sleep
Dangerous! - Teenage Rampage (Who Me and Sam saw live with Young Guns and they kicked ass! Fucking awesome)
And just a load of Crashdiet and Hardcore Superstar that I probably never would of got.

I mean I can't have them on my ipod and shit, cause I need to download them, so it's streaming it for free. I do feel bad that i'm not paying for their albums, but atleast I'm not pirating it.

Though sadly I don't know if it only lasts for 60 Days and I fucking hope it doesn't cause I love the thing to death it's my new baby at the moment lol.

But i'm going out with my aunt Angela tomorrow which sould be fun, and then seeing Lewbear later after his councelling :) Can't wait to see him <3

Oh! I've been learning Finnish today, since I'm going next year and I need to practice up my finnish. Sandra's been helping me too, making sure this site i'm using is using the correct finnish words and shit. And next time we speak, she's going to test me on the words. Decided to keep a roter and do a different section of the site for a month. So right now i'm learning Finnish Phrases for a month and oing it for 2 hours a day :) So hopefully I shall remember something!

But i'm off for the night, since I have nothing more to write. Apart from i'm dying my hair Green on Sat/Sun and that I LOVE MY MUSIC TASTE! I'm so fucking glad I listen to other music than rock and metal all the time. It would be so boring.

But I'm off, night for now!
Love Emma xx

You need me man, I don't need you

Hey guys,

How are we all today?

Today has been a great day if I'm honest. Everyday is a great day when I'm at College, I bloody love it! <3
The best parts of the day have had to be Band Practice and the Dinner Jam haha.

It's been such a laugh with just everything. "That's what she said" Indeed.
The band ( Aileen, Alex, David and I) have been playing American Idiot by Green Day and Hanging By The Telephone by Blondie, constantly! But it's been good :D

At first I couldn't really be assed to do practice, simply cause I'm a lazy fucker. But once you get into it, it's wonderful haha. Much better I think, than the actual band I'm in right now (I know that sounds god awful!) But it's because we have actually managed to write a song in the space of an hour. Which I just find amazing, since I've been trying to get the band I'm in right now to help out with wiring music and there just like "Meh, we'll just do covers"
Yet the lead singer of the band thinks he's going to be able to go on tour just doing every one's covers? Don't think so mate.

Don't get me wrong, I do like the band I'm in, but recently I've been thinking if it's going downhill a little, you know?








Clearly Alex does not! Haha

I'm fucking loving College, I love the people on the course and in the class, there all lovely. Fact, college is much better than School, more calmer and just more awesome. You get people on you're course who actually give a shit in what they want to achieve, what they do in life. Plus they love the things that you love, I have now more people to go to gigs with, hand about, have a jam session and so on! IT'S WONDERFUL haha

So yeah, about the Dinner Jam. Basically all the people in my course always just sit in the reception, pull all the chairs together in a circle round this table and this guy called Mitchell gets out his guitar and starts to play a song, and we all sit and just jam, sing and sway to the music.
Though today Leanne and I decided that it would be cool if Mitchell started playing Wonderwall by Oasis, then Aileen joined in, then Natalie, then Leanne and I and so forth. So that's what we did, the song gradually getting louder. Was fucking awesome, bloody loved it.
Oh then there was this guy sat on his own on the next small table with his guitar, so we told him to come over and he just joined in playing and singing Wonderwall, he was on Level 3 above us, was such a lovely guy. Named Danny Taylor lol. The everyone after was like...

Loved it, so I recorded it and here it is...(If it works)

College Sing Along - Wonderwall by Oasis <--- Click it, the song should play straight away, scroll down to the bottom of the page!

Then at band practice, we used the lyrics that I had half written, then Aileen and I sat down together and wrote more lyrics up for it, and so far we have Verse 1, Chours and Verse 2 which I think is pretty awesome! Whilst Alex and David created the guitar and bass music :P Just need to ass drums to it now and we're all sorted. Still can't believe that we wrote a song in 60 minutes. But then again, we all love music and that's what we're there for :')

What we're like :3

But for now I am off, as I am going to write more of my Winter Kiss story before I die of Sleep deprivation :P

Adios amigos!

Love you all!

Night, Emma xx

18+ Gig and No Beer

Okay, so the title say's it all really. Me and the mates Chelsea and Lennod (Ellie) went to go see Lewis's band play a gig at Weststreet Live in town, but the thing was, Lew said the gig was a 16+ when infact, when we got there turned out to be an 18+ show.

So after attempting to get in on our own, through the back entrance, in with the brothers of people in the band. We finally managed to get in with the guitarist's (Danny) dad, which we are now his three daughters lol. But he's a nice guy.

The band we're suppsed to be playing at 8pm but it got bumped up to 9pm, which caused me to get pissed off cause I recently told my dad we would set off home by 9pm. But Lennod's dad gave us a lift home.

The gig turned out to be awesome as usual, though I still think some songs need to be changed round a little. Chelsea got kind of flirted with a guy called Hatchell (Liam) which was quite funny. Whilst me, Lennod and Lew decided that her and Danny B would make a chte couple...even though she dissagress, but she knows it :P

Then after the gig the three of us and Lew walked to Lennod's car in the dark forbiden town of Sheffield. Was fun, and the band got two more fans, which means next time they play, I wont be stood on my own,and hopefully it wont be an 18+ which I must say was rather pointless :/

Though it was a laugh sitting in a booth for an hour or two just chatting, laughing and Chelsea, Danny and Hatch flirting whilst the three of us girls text-chatted haha

But i'm off to bed since i'm tired and have College in the morning. YAY the joys of adulthood...pft don't think so. The photo you are about to see is of Chelsea (Left) and Ellie 'Lennod' (Right) both reciving a text from me at the same time. Found it quite awesome lol.

Also I just dowloaded this app for the phone, so I can always be with you and post random blog entries that no one reads lol xx

Night everyone xx

Drowning deep inside your sound

Hey guys...again. Christ, I have no idea how many blogs I have made on blogspot, but I have quite a few.


But I honestly will try and update this frequently, I know I always say that (and end up never doing) But I will, with much time and effort. Since this blog is attached to another blog I use frequently, and won't forget the login like I usually do. -__- I know. But yeah, if you do end up reading this, it's attached to my Book Reviews. So go take a look! :D


I have done fuck all, all day and i'm fed up of it. I'm only at college two days a week, which is Monday and Tuesday, I suppose I wouldn't be so bored if I was there like, Monday and Wednesday. Cause then that gives me time, and it's spaced out. I would even be happy with some Homework to do (Yes, I know i'm strange) But it would keep me out of boredom.


But yeah, done nothing all day. Walked up to the shop to get some shopping for the mother, then went to the libary to sort out my CV on the Job site. Which will soon lead me onto my next statement soon. Anyway's, came home did fuck all and just watch Kerrang!, Scuzz and How I Met Your Mother (Much love for Ted) then decided to catch the bus to the village again, grab a box of Curiously Cinnamon then walk back home eating them :D Fucking tasty things. Yum :P


Right now i'm sat listening to Nirvana <3 Much love, I was going to write some more of my Winter Kiss story...which you can view here
---> Stories Click it! You may like them ;) Or I was going to update some of my Strawberry Swing one, but I really can't be bothered.


Come as you are, as you were, as I want you to be. As a friend, as a friend, as an old enemy <3

Fucking love that song, fave Nirvana song :P Got Breed playing through the earphones now. What did you guys think of the Nirvana cover cd? I thought it was quite okay actually. I thought that Deaf Havana's cover was best, but that might be just because it's my fave Nirvana song. But then again, it was just awesome in general. Young Guns cover of Polly was quite good, I thought it did better than what the press said they were like. The guitar solo at the end was brilliant, would be quite cool if they did some songs like that. Fucking great band by the way, go check them out, and Deaf Havana if you've never heard of them. Also Francesqa's cover was bloody awesome also, was not that keen on it at first, if i'm honest with you. But after a while, it got to me and I loved it. Kids In Glass Houses's was awesome too!

If you have never heard of those four bands at the top, go listen to them, There all bloody amazing and deserve the credit they deserve! :D Do It!

But yeah, that's all i've done all day. I'm a boring fucker, though i'm going to Pizza Hut tomorrow with Lewis, and don't know if we're going to the pictures after aswell. I don't know, but what I do know is that I get a sexy Pizza! <3 Yum.

Off for now, talk tomorrow! Might have something interesting to tell you :) haha

Night monsters!

Emma xx

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